I fucked up. I fucked everything up. I know I made the biggest mistake of my life. I am not trying to justify what I did, but I have feelings to. I can’t deal with the constant talk about how stupid I am and how I don’t deserve to be happy. IM SORRY. I would do anything in the world to take back what I did, but I can’t. I have to deal with the consequences. But nobody should tell me I have no right to be upset. I lost my best friend. Yes it was because of something I did, but almost four years of being together, it isn’t fucking easy. I haven’t eaten since we broke up. I just nothing thought this would end. I will always love you and your crazy sense of humor, your silly voices, your kisses, everything. You were my first love and I will never forget how you made me feel. I would do absolutely anything to be able to be yours again, but I know that isn’t possible. You really realize how amazing love is when you’re in a relationship. I hope that everyone can experience that kind of love someday. Don’t take love for granted. Ever.